因为你..

因为你..
我恋上紫色...
因为你..
我恋上8号..
因为你..
我恋上看月亮的习惯..
因为你..
我变得不平凡..

31st july..

39 天后就是你的生日。。
对于你的生日，我还不知道要不要做些什么特别的东西。。
虽然一切都有个plan去做了，
可是还在犹豫..这么做会不会太不恰当

昨天听了一个朋友的故事，
人总是有悲欢离合，
可是他的故事真的太痛了...
咳...

这是想回我自己，却没好到哪里..
他都在一起到结束了，我还没开始...=.=ll
可能就是因为已经是个习惯，
所以总是无法不想她...

今天science club有个活动要开会..
我是一定要去啦，可是我不知为什么她也要去..(是陪我去吗？是的话我就爽到boom咯）
又是老样子，看见她总是会指点她这里不好那里不好，
可能是一时太想找话题找不到话题吧..
可是还聊到蛮开心的..
又是一个简单却开心的回忆..
回到过去，如果当初我珍惜你,
没犯下毁坏你对我的信任，
我们真的会在一起吗?

如果在一起..这些快乐的事会是你的回忆吗？
突然想起这首歌...[如果我变成回忆]


歌词

累了 照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了
听着 呼吸像浪潮摆动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你 槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你 我不怪你
快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你 槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你
如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不通气
顽固的赖在空气 霸占你心里 每一寸空隙
要让依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记

好感人的歌词...
真的会让我再次为你落下眼泪..
我看..要真的放下你，不是一件简单的事..

你带来太多回忆了，我也太蠢爱上了你..
如果有一天，我们不再见面，我会在你的回忆里吗?

29th july

41 days more to ur birthday..
i planned wat to do for u..
the only thing is..
i'm been asking myself questions many time..

should i do so..?
m i trying too hard..?
m i juz a 'bystander' tat never even touch ur heart before..?
mayb i m an idiot to spend so much time on u..
i duno..

2day 6am my alarm clock rang so noisy..
snooze the alarm n wana get back to slp..
belum sempat i close my eyes, heavy heacy rain started to pour..
it isn noisy tat it wake me..
but duno y, my mind is juz u when i heard tat rain falling..
u told me tat that is about the time u go to skul by bus..
duno y, i m kinda worried tat u will be wet in the rain..

why should i b concern, in such an early time tat i hvn even brush my teeth..?
whole mind is full of u..
2day i reached skul, stil curious r u ok..
but i tink u r ok..stil can chat wid frens, laugh n do ur hw without being distracted.....
then after tuition, so lucky gt the chance to be alone with u.
but wat the hell, i cant even spit out something to ask u..=.=ll
kinda frustrated juz to be 'u stare me i stare u'..
like v r outta topic..=.=ll


mayb, juz mayb, i really am tryin too hard........
or perhaps, i m thinking too much.......

a day of craziness..

2day is 24/7..lolz..
ths date so nice..24/7..
nice date for a crazy 'date'..

2day at skul duno y gt tat kind of weird feeling..
mayb is cz they misunderstood wat i wrote on my blog..
juz dun hv the guts to speak to her..
i make her vr hard to do in front of her frens..

n tats becz somebody misunderstood wat i write n ter-heboh-heboh hal itu di sekolah..
mayb it is cz me, plus too much pressure from frens, plus she tot she 'betrayed' her frens. she break down ytd n cried..
yet she lied to me she didn cry..
so damn hate gossip yesterday..
i dun like the 'position' i m placed, becz i looks like then main cause of this problem..
n more importantly, i lost her trust...haiz....
when i try to concern her, she juz reply with a ' i'm ok' style msg..=.=l

then came to 2day..aka.24/7..
altought gt a bit 'gap' between her frens n her, but i can c tat things r gettin better..
at least she is in her ussual gang..

then at nite, yl n sze yein 'kerjasama' tipu me go out yamcha..
i dun wan go de, but yl say she come fetch, so ma go lor..
when get on car, staight regret..
becz she is on the front seat..zz
really duno wat to react..
so juz act noob thru the whole journey to 21st cafe..
at there i oso vr k guai, suddenly act noob, suddenly vr silent..
aiyo..this is cz i duno wat to do ma..=.=ll
really duno wat to do there..so weird de feelings..
plus really vr sienz..n i went out without telling parents..gettin bad here..
duno y juz suddenly stare at yl's laptop n vr vr vr vr vr emo..

duno who suggest, go prima de fun fair..
i tot things can finally get better between me n her..
how on hell i noe, i m juz dreaming..
the real thing is, she dun wan to play anything..
n i did chat wid her..but nt with my usually chatting way..
i TALKED EMO STUFF TO HER...!!
wat the hell..

so now sitting in front of computer screen, continueing emo-ing..
emo emo emo emo emo emo emo...